Friday, April 30, 2010
Day 14 (a little bit early in case I don't get to it tomorrow: on being unavailable
So as I sank into my practice, sometimes I was unavailable. The grace of spirit, for me, is partly trusting that even when people I love feel disappointment because I'm not available for them in the ways they hope for, they will hear me when I'm transparent with them about what I can and can't offer. During the poetry practice I learned I didn't always have to say why I wasn't available. I could just say, "Oh, I'm sorry, I'm busy tonight." And that was that. I let them take care of their reaction, and I took care of my commitment to the practice. A novel experience for the parts that want to take care of everyone.
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you have been more "available" to me since facebook than ever before.... so many of your words deeply touch me... and i am so happy you are writing.... and writing a book!!! so exciting!!
ReplyDeletei have to say that i have felt disappointment in that we never really connect except for the rare family gatherings... but am loving our connection now.... you mean a lot to me Marcia... i really wish we lived closer...
love ya tons...